I knew you were there from the day I was born
because I needed you.
I could not find your name in The Bible
or scrawled on church walls,
there was something about the Devil,
The feeling in my navel kept tugging me
through the portals in the books I read about sundered worlds.
They opened something and I fell into you
but I didn’t know what you were,
(that a god could be the underworld).
I searched the absences
and filled my hands with empty air
and filled my ears with words without sound.
I danced and raised my hands to the sky
but only found you when I fell to the ground.
I drank my way back to you living
in the epoché where the rules of thisworld
fall away like empty shells
and all the hidden people are revealed,
the times piled on top of one another like broken cars.
You showed me silver spaceships,
three shining gateways,
pathways to the stars that always led back down.
Your world – you – were so beautiful you frightened me.
I returned to my shell
but could not deny what you are or what I am.
Eventually you showed me your face and told me your name.